My mind seems to always feel over whelmed and restless at night with so much being thought about. It’s not always pure positivity, then I wouldn’t be stuck gazing at complete darkness out my window. At times I don’t know about myself and feel self-pity when I really shouldn’t. I think it’s the consistency of being awake when my body should be at ease and under somnolence.

I guess things tend to make sense when my mind is more focused on all these thoughts floating aimlessly. Even though it should be spent sleeping and have the feeling to wake up with the sum rising through the slits of my blinds. Maybe I’m trying to make some sort of sense that I feel better and understand everything for the time being.